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May God’s love be with you

30 Jul

Off, zi plina de scandaluri, de dimineata pana dupa-amiaza. Si uite ca am trecut si peste asta. Inca o data descopar ca nu pot sa mint. Pur si simplu nu pot si asta imi aduce destule probleme si acum desi am un gol foarte mare nici eu nu stiu exact pe unde, ma simt oarecum impacata cu mine insami. Si acum imi trebuie tratament. Si pentru ca m-am certat cu parintii azi , fac terapie cu ceilalti parinti ai mei, cu care am crescut de pe la 12 ani, pe care ii iubesc si care ma bindispun, nu imi fac morala niciodata. Da, ei sunt tipii de la R.E.M. Ei care ne spun mereu ca ” All the way to Reno, you’re gonna be a star”

Acum imi aduc aminte anumite perioade prin care am trecut. In primul rand , perioada “crazy”, dar rau de tot pentru ca toata lumea poate sa se intoarca impotriva mea si eu stau acolo..i’m still standing si nu renunt la ideile mele sub nicio forma: “This sugarcane/This lemonade/This hurricane, Im not afraid./This lightning storm/This tidal wave/This avalanche, Im not afraid.” Da I’m crazy , “You take a walk and you try to understand/Nothing can hurt you/Unless you want it to/There are no answers/Many reasons to be strong.

Perioada “everybody hurts” , perioada in care nu ma mai simt asa puternica, in care sunt small and fragile: “I will try not to breathe/This decision is mine. /I have lived a full life/And these are the eyes that I want you to remember. Si apoi realizez ca e momentul sa ma conformez cu situatia in care m aflu, cum zicea someone special, although I breathe rarely, at least I do it. “Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it’s time to sing along /When your day is night alone,/If you feel like letting go /When you think you’ve had too much of this life, well hang on/ Cause everybody hurts.”

And I kept losing my religion, I talked about the passion, wrote letters for the ones I loved, feared that there wasn’t actually a man on the moon, tick-tock, tick-tock….

“Hey kids, rock and roll
Nobody tells you where to go, baby, baby, baby ”